@katebentley_ These last few months I’ve been undergoing a different kind of self-care. Not the bubble baths and manicures kind, but the deep emotional healing kind. .
Healing your own wounds, while trying not to bleed on your kids and pass the wounds on to them isn’t just hard work, it’s FUCKING EXHAUSTING!!!! When you add trying to run your own business in the mix, that involves mentoring and coaching people on a daily basis, my cup wasn’t just empty, I didn’t even have a cup!! .
So when the opportunity came up for me to go to Ibiza, childfree for my gorgeous friends renewing their wedding vows, I was all over it. Well actually that’s a lie. I was massively indecisive about allowing myself the time to enjoy myself, something i’ve got really good at since being a mum. What is all that about? For some really fucked up reason I had become like this martyr who doesn’t go anywhere and prefers to stay in all the time and not socialise. Basically, a big massive bore! But everything was just falling into place and aligning perfectly that I would have been mad not to go.
Anyway, I am absolutely made up that I decided to go because I had the time of my life. Not the same type of ‘time of my life’ I would have had in my twenties like, but I did thoroughly enjoy myself. .
I thought I’d struggle with mum guilt but I didn’t one bit. Just being able to eat a meal without having to take someone the toilet 5 times was amazing. But aside from that, getting reacquainted with myself as Kate was a treat. And just enjoying myself in one of my favourite places in the world, with so many of my favourite people in the world.
So I returned home with my cup well and truly overflowing, refreshed and alive. This is the bit where you’d expect me to say and now I have so much patience with the kids and I’m an all round better mum, but in all honesty… I just can’t really get back into it. Seriously!!! So two kids for sale if anyones interested. Both really really cute. Ones dead sweet and polite, the other swears like a sailor and completely ignores everything you say. Oh and both refuse to sleep in their own bed. Any takers?? JOKES!! Obviously I adore them really and missed them loads.